Your promise

I will hold on to Your promise when You said I would pass this test, When I would have to stuggle with my studies, relationship and peers

Human

Humans are very complicated creatures.. We are like many layers of onions. Deep inside there are so many things to discover. Until now, I have yet to discover about myself. There are so many things which I still wonder. Have you ever wonder what kind of person you are? If you think that you are a nice person, why do we always have enemies or people hating us. I am sure many people know the phrase " Treat people the way you want to be treated" Anyone who is able to do what this phrase says, I think he or she deserves a big clap. As much as you want others to treat you well, you tend to screw things up and people tend to judge you. Anyway this is just a place where I type random things to express how I feel cause in the place I am now, no one really seems to care or be there for me. Why don't I have friends, because I do not really trust people, maybe I do not know how to choose them but then again I think everyone knows that friendship can only go to a certain distance and after that you just drift apart for some reasons. I don't really communicate much with my family since they do not have much time for me and I don't really know how to share what is going on in my life. I am just feeling lonely and sorrowful in life and there is nothing much I can do about it I guess.
I have yet to understand about myself.. What kind of person am I? Am I really that bad a person that is hard to get along with or am I demanding too much? What kind of life do I need to live?
Do I have to blame myself for everything that has happen or is it others who hurt me? I really feel like giving up everything and just get use to the new life but am I doing the right thing?
I just wish you would grow up and not be so childish, look at the world around you, it is not that perfect and the people you call friends, look at their actions carefully and thing? Their motives are so clear but yet to you choose to believe otherwise and at the same time you want me to protect you from everything. And when I try to do so, You ahte me for that. You put me through so much pain but you don't really seem to care, all you care about is yourself. I really don't know what to do. I just hope you would stop doing things your way and start thinking about others, for a moment just wonder why I feel or do things a certain way instead of just coming down on me.


B.H